Struggles In Life

It's been a while that I did not updated my diary after few months of rigid and hectic schedules. Like school requirements, thesis book, practice teaching, processing my papers in coming to US, preparing for the wedding. Oh! boy it's too much for me but praise God I able to mange all of them and I knew that God is always helping me.

I'm struggling so much in my studies for 7 years of working and studying. It's one of my dream to finish my course so I strive very much just to get all my dreams in life. With sweat, tears and much sacrifice just to endure and finish my studies. Of course God is the center of everything because I can't do nothing without Him. I don't know how to start to write all the experiences that I had. But I wanna try to write and start when I am working in my research.
One of the requirements in school was thesis before you can graduate in college you must have thesis. Most of the student enrolled thesis or research subject gone to difficulties and including me. Sometimes I'm discouraged and don't want to continue my research but if I didn't go on it means no thesis, no graduation. It's bad to think about that I can't graduate from college. It hurts me so much so everyday I went to the internet to have a research in my thesis. Overnight and over day my face was on the computer, I experienced to kiss the keyboard because I was so tired and was fall asleep in front of the computer. Life is so hard that's all I can say that time. Plus, I have my struggle in my English vocabulary and my English grammar too. I helped myself to read books but I indeed up sleeping & kissing my book too because I'm tired for the whole day work being a self-supporting student. Then when I'm alone inside the dormitory room without the presence of my roommates I read very loud and talked alone just to practice my pronunciation in English. It's very difficult to learn when you are adult already that supposed to be I learned English during my elementary years. But learning is everywhere, so I tried so hard just to improve my grammar.

I will continue my diary next I have to do my house chores now.Thank you for reading.