At first I'm hesitant to post this blog because I don't want to post something that has significance in my life. But now I have courage to put in diary for me to recall those experiences that I have to reflect on them and help me to go on my dreams in life. For my friend also to read so they can get lessons out of my experiences and hope you will enjoy reading my blog. Hope you will like what I posted in here. It's my first time to make diary. Here we go...
We back in the year 1993-94 after my graduation in high school. I'm very much happy because I finished my high school in Central Visayan Institue Bohol Philippines. It was the starting point of my life where to go and what to do since my parents can't send me to college because of financial problem. So I was confused what to do after my graduation and I prayed to God to guide me in my plans. It come up to my decision to joined (LE)- Literature Evangelist spreading the good news through printed pages selling health books, children books and many more.
After 2 years I realized that I need to go to school to enroll course or degree. Since I don't have enough financial support from my parents and from anybody. I don't have money or any savings for school enrollment so I told my parents about my planned to work in Manila (capital city of Philippines) and save some money for my college education. To make it short, I went to Manila...and I leaved my family for me to earn money for my education.
Brother & Sister...with sis. n law and nieces.
Ferry going to Manila and I traveled for 3 days in the boat.
I arrived in Manila safely. But I didn't know that it's the beginning of my challenges in the big city.
Manila Boat Port...
Only high school graduate and had privileged to apply in the store as sales lady as one of their requirements. Since I'm high school graduate, I applied in the store but the in charge told me that they would accepted me if I don't work on Saturday.(which is my Sabbath day or rest day). I was thinking of working on Saturday but my conscience can't really take it. I struggled whom would I choose my work and earn money or to go to church during Saturday day.They are both very important to me.
I decided not to work in the department store as a sales lady and chose to be a baby sitter and I have off during Saturdays. I'm working in a family with 4 kids. At first it's find but as time goes it's rough and I have difficulties to adjust and deal with four kids. They really are little monster and they tested my patience so much. I am always thinking that if I don't adjust the four kids and don't have enough patience I think I'm the next patient in the hospital. That's the motto that I heard before and it become my motto and it lingers in my mind "If you don't have enough patient, You will be the next patient in the hospital". I baby sit a 9 months old baby girl, a 5 year old boy who is kinder. I prepared their food everyday and prepared the food for school to the oldest son who's 12 yrs old and also for the 8 year old girl. The oldest boy whose 12 yrs old wasn't so hard for me because he knew how to take care of himself but have to prepare food and their things before they were going to school. Oh my! it's my very first time to do such thing like what I did in Manila. I'm teaching myself to love the kids as my own kids so it's not hard for me to take care of them everyday. I found out that being a mother is a great responsibility and makes me think my mom how did she deal 4 of us when we are small.
I'm the only one who work all the household chores because their mother is working in school as a teacher and their father was working in other country. The mother of the 4 kids leaved at 5 in the morning and go home at 8 o'clock in the evening most of the time. I do all the work in the house such as washing the dirty clothes, cooking, selling foods in the food court, cleaning the house, taking care the kids and many more. They just paid me 1,500 pesos-equivalent to 30$ per month that time. I said to myself it's okay though it's too much work for me as a teenager but I learned to love the children. Plus, I don't have choice if I'm looking for another job because it took time to get another one. It is very hard to find job in Manila, I really want to have work so I can save money and go to school. For short, all in all I worked for 2 years in Manila and I worked so hard and bear all the situation because I want to go to college and then I don't want to work on Saturday because it's especial day for me.
Then one day, the brother of my boss came and he was introduced to me before by her sister.(which is the mother of the 4 children). At first everything was fine, he was so very kind to me. He often visited me in my boss house and we talked each other as friend. Until one day he went to the house and court me. He offered me a lot of thing such as jewelries, money, bank book and more. I understand that he want to gave me something just to get me but I refused to accept all of the things he offered to me. I told him I don't need the things and money even though I need some money for school. I don't like him so I did not accepted him as my sweetheart. He offered me a lot of things again like big amount of money, jewelries, dresses, shoes and many more stuff to impressed me but I said I don't want them. One afternoon when the children was fall asleep, he came to the house and ask if I want to hug him, and he wanted to kiss me and more than hug and kiss. He acted differently and I was shocked when he told me those words. I get mad at him and I am thinking to slap his face but I did not because I hold my peace. I'm thinking if I do that maybe he would forced me or either rape me especially I was alone in the house that time so I am still kind to him. I talked to him in a very soft voice with much prayers that he would be calm of what he wanted to happened that afternoon. I told him that there's a time for everything for him and that everything would come in his right time. I'm thankful that he agreed and left the house. But he says to come back again. By that time, I was confused and don't know what to do...I was just 17-18 yrs young that time.
I told my boss that her brother was different and she said that's the way he is and the former nanny of the kids get pregnant because of him. It makes me so scared...
December came and I asked my boss to go home to visit my family. But beyond my mind I don't want to come back again. Then the mother of the 4 children allowed me to go home. After 2 weeks I sent her a letter not to go back because I want to go to school and enroll in college.
So that my life in Manila.I'm glad that I'm doing great this time.
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